=D [Saturday March 11th, at 6:07pm] im slowly coming out of my depression. im becoming happier and actually doing things. i dont cry myself to sleep anymore. i dont wish i were dead anymore. i joined track too. its really hard work, but fun and relaxing. im losing weight too. its great. its a slow process. depression is hard. its so hard to get out of. im smiling a lot more. i stopped cutting. i just want to be happy so badly. mon coeur

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merry christmas [Friday December 23rd, at 6:54pm] How is everyone? It's all good here..kind of. I hate the winter because I get so damned depressed and I hate it. I see what happens but just can't stop it. I just withdrawl myself and sit at home and do nothing. I don't call people, I don't hang out, I don't go to parties, I don't make friends. I get really bad thoughts and I can't stop them. I feel abandoned and alone and I just can't stop the thoughts. I try to keep myself preoccupied to stop myself from thinking.. I don't want any pity from anyone, I just needed to write it all out. mon coeur

destiny [Wednesday November 16th, at 7:53pm] Well this is my first real entry. I use this journal mostly to test my layouts I make. I decided to actually update in it sometimes..probably not a whole lot though. So sorry for people who will actually care enough to read my journal. Well what's on my mind? THANKSGIVING! I can't wait. I'm going to have so much fun! Hanging out with friends and eating turkey! =D And hmm..what else? Well I have this problem that I feel so unsafe talking about my past. I feel like I'm lying to everyone. I make up some happy story to keep people from feeling sorry for me. When I tell a friend something they pity me and keep saying "I'm sorry!!" and I understand that they truely are sorry and all. But...I don't know how to explain it. I just don't want people to feel sorry for me. So I just like lie..or not say anything at all...or I just walk away. Do you believe in things like fate and destiny? Like there's a reason for everything? It's a really hard thing to understand. I think I believe in it.. I can't wait until I get my braces off. The doctor dude said I might get them off early. I've only had them for 7 months..since April. I'm supposed to have them for about 24-30 months. The doctor is already talking about taking them off early and I'm not even half way through the treatment. Haha, see what taking care of your teeth does?!! =D So excited. Girls can be so damn bitchy sometimes. This girl in on of my classes I can't fucking stand. She's such a bitch. I hate that. Oh yeah, and it snowed today! I was so happy! I wanted to run out of school and catch snowflakes on my tongue! Well I think I shall go. See ya later alligator!! mon coeur

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